2010 Here's To You

Adios two thousand nine. It feels really good to say that. In the entire twenty nine years of my precious life I never had such a zany year. On this exact day last year I became extremely ill from what I assume to have been the nasty flu. I was sick in bed for an entire two weeks and thought it was just a virus. My equilibrium was off, I was nauseas all the time and I thought I was going to die. Really. Although some of you probably wish I did croak, too fucking bad. I'm alive and plan to fulfill what I was put on this earth for. After the battle of the virus I continued to get sick every month and had these wrenching headaches that prevented myself from taking care of my babies. They were taking care of me while dad was working his buns off. My baby started to feel sick as well and I rushed her to the e.r. thinking she had severe asthma. She was up all night coughing and could not breathe. She was put on an inhaler and that didn't even soothe her pain. Months went by and I couldn't figure out why Hannah and I were the only ones getting ill. Bryan was always working and Mack was always at school. Hannah didn't start kindergarten until August. I had mentioned this to the owners of the townhome we were living in at this time because they continuiously had someone coming to check the air conditioner. I had no idea why since the time we moved in they had it checked so often. In March I expressed how sick we had been and by May we received a letter from them stating they suspected Chinese Drywall. Mind you, they had the air checked from the get go back in October when we moved in. So about eight times the guy came to inspect this air conditioner and the owners never told us why. Well after the letter I knew they had just held out as long as possible to gain every months rent from us and could care less about the damage this was doing to my family. This explained why we were so sick. I did my research on this stuff and all of the symptoms we were having were related to Chinese Drywall. I was fumed. This bitch let us go eight months living there and she knew the entire time that it was hazardous to our health. Upon receiving the letter-eight months later, I immediately got rid of everything and moved out sending her a letter about how hurt I was that she did this to us and she had absolutely no remorse. No apology what so ever. What a cold fucking bitch.

Maybe now some of you can understand why I hate ignorant, selfish human beings and anyone that gets in my way will be bashed. I truly am the way I am because of the run ins I've had with people that don't deserve to be on this earth. I am a kind, loving person but if you rub me the wrong way, that's it. I'm done. I've had my fair share of idiots and I think that it's better that I meet them when I'm young because I guarantee you I now know what assholes to look for, what questions to ask and what to look for when I'm dealing with people, places and things. You live and you learn. I'm just glad we are still very young and having had the experiences like no other whether good or bad, I am truly blessed and glad to be alive. I thank God everyday that he has given us what we did not have growing up and despite the fact that I seem like a rotten biotch sometimes, I'm a damn good mother and not a single person can ever make me feel otherwise.

We moved two times, been to the emergency room three times, had the in laws down to visit, bumped into many curbs, well, me anyways, yelled at three older people for not knowing how to drive in a parking lot (look who's talking), sold a vehicle, returned approx. twelve items back to the stores, drank about three hundred seventy cups of joe, wiped ass about eleven hundred eighty times, did about three hundred sixty loads of laundry, had sex nineteen times, watched a movie at the theater, wrote one hundred thirty six posts, donated twenty bags to Goodwill, baked with my girls countless times, read numerous books, had it out with eachother (B and Me) two times, sang and danced a million and one times and got silly: about a gazillion times. 

My hopes and dreams for this new year are brighter than ever before. I have no regrets of the experiences we've faced, it only makes us that much stronger. We've been fortunate enough to live in nice places, have food in the fridge and clothes on our backs. I don't take anything we have for granted. Money is so not important to me. Although it does relieve a lot of stress. But having been just the four of us all year long, I wouldn't have asked for anything more. They are all I need and I am so very blessed to be raising these girls that are growing so gorgeously. 

So here's to you 2010. I can feel you behaving already. Now just bring an end to war, hunger and violence so we can live in a world without any worries.  

      

 Cheers.