7.23.2011

Always on my Mind: 9 years

Today brother, you were taken from our lives. You were laid to rest and now your spirit roams free! I never imagined after nine years, I'd still feel your presence, each and every day. Yes, I knew you'd always be in my heart, on my mind.......but never a day goes by without you near. It's like an invisible being {i feel you around me all the time}! I'm not just saying this---I truly feel my little brother. I feel him looking at me sometimes and think for a brief moment that it's weird AND then I smirk, roll over and just feel the most easing feeling imaginable.
Dougie, you may not be here in front of our eyes. I may not be able to hug you, kiss your cheeks or feel your skin but i know you are my angel. You walk beside me, whiz around corners and watch over us to make sure we're safe and sound. Yet I do not see you, I can still blow you kisses, tell you I love you and goodnight, laugh and dance with you! And I know you know I'm calling out to you. I know you hear me.

God had better plans for you! He gave me 20 years of your life and throughout those years we shared a bond that drove us close in the very end. We shared secrets, cries, laughter and prayer. We shared heartache and pain, love and hope, dreams and drives. Ultimately, God knew what was best and took you home. Home to a safe place where you could no longer be hurt, heart broken or tore to pieces. I never questioned the good lord why he took you, i already knew. I am at peace because I know you are brother. You are our One Love, our peaceful angel and my only brother.

Douglas Alan Taylor
Father, Son, Brother, Friend
5/27/1982-7/23/2002
May your soul soar, may your smile forever be in our sights, may you whisper i love yous and hold us tight. When you're dancing with the angels and singing in the light, remembering you is our last thought of the night. We know you're at peace and therefore we are, but not a day goes by that your memory will ever cease. You are forever in our hearts, on our minds and soon enough, our souls will meet again, whispering in the winds.
I love you to the moon and back! your big sis ♥ Vic

PS: ma dukes needs you, she misses and loves you so very much motor guy!

15 comments:

Sherri said...

Big HUGS to you, beautiful friend!! Such a such a sweet post, Vic!XO

Slidecutter said...

How lucky he was to have you in his life.

Beautiful post, sweet lady!

Chrissy said...

Lovely post - have a wonderful day sweet friend!
Hugs xxx

Tanya (a Taste of T) said...

This is so beautiful :)

Madison said...

Lovely words:) Have a nice day.

Heather said...

Beautiful photo and words.

Elle said...

Beautiful tribute. It's so comforting to find peace and to be able to cherish your fond memories of your brother. Lots of big hugs to you today.

becca said...

hugs

Cherie @ Lots of Jewels' Blog said...

This is beautiful Vic! I am sorry for your loss, but you have travelled that road of grief and come out the other end. You know this is not the end, that your brother will be there to take you in his arms again someday!

You are such a beautiful person. This is a beautiful tribute and I bet he is smiling right now!

xoxoxoxo

Cherie @ Lots of Jewels' Blog said...

This is beautiful Vic! I am sorry for your loss, but you have travelled that road of grief and come out the other end. You know this is not the end, that your brother will be there to take you in his arms again someday!

You are such a beautiful person. This is a beautiful tribute and I bet he is smiling right now!

xoxoxoxo

Vapid Vixen said...

This literally gave me goosebumps. Thank you for sharing something so intimate with the rest of us. That takes courage.

1 Funky Woman said...

How how beautiful your words are! It sounds like you two had such a wonderful relationship! My heart goes out to you! No matter how long ago a loved one passes it still feels like yesterday! Its been almost nine years that my mother passed.

As hard as it is having them gone it is comforting to know they are watching over us from above!

Megan

♥ Nadine ♥ said...

Oh my, reading this made me speechless. I really have tears in my eyes. For one, because you expressed your feeling so well. And for another, because I can totally relate to what that feels like: the person gone from our lives for a few years, yet to feel them around every day, every minute.

People tend to say it gets better. I think, it doesnt. It fades in the background, a little bit. And maybe one remember the good things more often, forgetting a little bit, that not everything was rosy. But now, we will miss this dearly person oh so much, if it's one year, ten years or fifty years!

Thanks for opening up! That was bittersweet to read!

Big hugs to you!!

Sylvia C. Hall said...

what an amazingly written post. so beautiful, and such a great perspective on life hereafter.

blessings,
Sylvia

Missy said...

Beautiful post- hugs your way! x x